just personal note that I want share to everyone

I finally reply to his last e-mail today. The e-mail that said he couldn't spend much time with me, catching up, because that's what he promise a person he's seeing.

I wrote down my reply with much love and respect, to thank for all the time we spent and the love he gave. The relationship that really taught me about 'Love' and really do make me feel what is called 'Love.'

He replied with the same sentiment, we both learn about love at the same time. He still encourage me to be optimistic and open to possibilities.

Love is still a 'Love'

real Love can't go away and never faded.

I could be felt even just through electronic form. real Love can send that energy to you.


At least whatever happen in the future. I was loved the way a woman supposed to be loved.

Thanks John

together

I Don't want to lead


and I don't want to follow


We can just walk along side each other


I don't want perfection...


I don't want a big house...


I just want to love and to be loved... sincerely

is that a tall order?

Thank You

I want to Thank you that make me know 'LOVE'

I want to thank you that make me feel 'LOVED'

I want to thank you for made me realize how much I worth.

After 'US' ...

yes, it is hard for me to find the greater than the great.

But that because you made me know what 'great' is....

And if I will never feel that feeling again...

At least I know it's exist.

Thank You

Sogod Bay, Philippines, March 2011

CHANGE

Change is always painful

Change is difficult

Stepping in the unknown area

Stepping out of the familiarity

But if what you are having is not right

But if you feel you are struggling

CHANGE is NECESSARY

เดินไปด้วยกัน

ไม่ได้ต้องการเป็นเท้าหน้า

และไม่ต้องการเป็นเท้าหลัง

แค่เราเดินไปพร้อมกันจะได้ไหม

ไม่ได้ต้องการคนสมบูรณ์แบบ

ไม่ต้องการบ้านหลังใหญ่...

...ต้องการแค่รัก และความจริงใจ ให้กัน...




18 ธันวาคม 2553

Broken and drowning

I once asked him if I am broke, would he take me back... He smile and said I won't be. He didn't know my soul was already cracked and about to be crumbling down. 

Now it does crumbled and broke down...and I don't think it can be fixed. It has no compassion for life, it got no fire and it got no passion. It is lonely and cold and it wants nothing to do with the world. But it does need love to live and it does broken.

It is sinking...drowning in coldness of misery..


December 18, 2010

I am just a girl

watching "Notting Hill" the other day. Someone posted a part of the movie on facebook and I ended up watched the last 40 minutes of the movie. Yes, it's a chick flick. But it reflect a lot of things happened to me. People tend to forget when we act so tough, so independent, so self-sufficiant.... But "I'm too, just a girl, in front of a boy...asking him to love her"

It doesn't matter, how good, how cool, how smart, how pretty...at the end of the day, I'm just an ordinary woman that needed to be love.

12 August 2009  Aquarium, Paragon, Bangkok

there is a say "Women are not meant to be understood, Women are mean to be loved"